Moving Pictures Shot in Still Frames

so, im fucked.... losing a job i worked 2 years to get........ hope i can seperate for this damned military contract

sometimes you get what you asked for.... and it wasnt what you wanted.
sometimes you get what you deserve.... and cry cause it was warranted
sometimes you see things you dont wanna see, hear things you dont wanna hear
sometimes being alone with your own thoughts is one's greatest fear

i feel guilty for how i have lived

You can ask me six questions...
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6.


...No matter how random, revealing, rude, or pointless...
I promise to answer them 100% truthfully

yooooo bitches

You don't know what your power has done to me
I want to know if I'll heal inside
I can't go on with a holocaust about to happen
Seeing you laughing another time
You'll never know how your face has haunted me
My very soul has to bleed this time
Another hole in the wall of my inner defenses
Leaving me breathless, the reason I know

That I am stricken and can't let you go
When the heart is cold, there's no hope, and we know
That I am crippled by all that you've done
Into the abyss will I run...

Into the abyss will I run...

fuckin tomorrow yo

Ithnain Ayam Um Kelbat!
Two Days Mother Bitches!

that meanshalf dayo of schoolo tomorrow and hella briefings... then................... no sleep allllll night annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd sleeping on planes HOME!

four days till i leave this shit hole....
home here i come

my last entry said call and none of you did..... bastards

ok, so i was gone for a LONG ass time and now im back and updating again and NO ONE is reading it.... y'all suck
ummmmm we have a nuzha (picnic) on friday after the test and my dental appointment... i should rescheduale that.
there some jewish mexican guy sitting beside me...... good ole rodreeg
sooooo yeah, um, what up wit y'all eh?
im at the rec, just played a lil football. heather whooped my ass a pool for a while and i decided it was internet time.... too bad most of the shit i get on to see on here is blocked.... damn government computers.
been talking to hendrix and simmons lately..... so ready to go home and see those too soon. cant wait to see all the girls either, but im'a wait and call them after i get home and be like.... LETS GO SHOPPINNNNNNNNNNNG....... only more gay and less shopping.
oh and if possible pass along to cinnifresh to pass along to todnapper that should he be coming home for christmas that i want to see his ass too. well maybe not his ASS.... well maybe
ANYWHO........... im tired of rambling and your tired of reading...... you are, stop.

call me yo..... wanna see, hear, hug (ok, thats later) y'all.
seriously..... if you have access to reading this, call me. i wanna talk to you
yes, even you!
i love y'all and i pray y'all have a wonderful christmas and i hope to talk to each and everyone of you.

so yeah, looks like ima update like.... say once a week..... tuesdays during computer lab
anyway..... um not much to update
nip rings are out.... have been for a while
3 tattys now..... and so many more to go
ummmmm going home in 9 FUCKIN DAYS yo.... so stoked to get all dressed im my blues and fly home
bet these army soldiers gotta wear full battle rattle home. lol, just kidding. anyway.... i guess its about that time for me to go arabic it up some more

P.S. if it sounds like its about you then it prob is:
you need to call me more
im sorry for how i treated you, you deserve to be happy and im glad to see ytou are now
it was nice talking to your freind from work the other day when i called and wanted to talk to you and if that mother fucker ever desrespects me like that again..... shit is goin down
anyway Ustez Eid says go do speaking. later bitches, i love y'all

9 DAYS, YAY

Why the fuck not...... may start updating this bitch again....
got a lil time over lunch break from class and decided to drop a few lines.
lot of stuff i should update you all on but im sure ive forgotten most of it so any questions..... post and get repilies, maybe. prob wont update often but some.
check for me on Myspace as well
BeanieXIIIMob@gmail.com

anywho..... 15 days till tuscaloosa.... can sport all my inkings to those who inspired them.

think i may be getting a laptop for christmas.... least im home... if so im'a be doing so producing on it when i get it back

anywho.... i got to run... time to go do that whole لغة العربية thing.

how many of us really know how it feels to be alone
to have no one around to care about our thoughts and emotions
to give a shit about the fuckin pointless details that run through our simple...... meaningless fucking minds
how often do YOU get to the point where you honestly dont give a shit what happens to yourself or those around you because at the end of the day...
day is absolutley fuckin rediculous.
honestly.... how many of you feel that way? and how often..... cause EYE personally get that burden of emotion at least once a fuckin day..... sometimes consuming my entire day.
I sometimes wonder what is the purpose of everything, and why do we keep going....
why?
we live to die.... fuckin studpid.
fuck..... so tired of everything....
dark closet poet type?
maybe?
depressed?
Maybe?
fed up?
possibly so?
who cares...... that life...... a continueous cycle from one dissapointment to the next.
hindsight is 20/20.
fuck.... im just as tired of writing this as you are reading.
byeness.

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nipples feel better today HUAH

nipples got pierced today HUAH!

been planning on sitting down and updating this for a while. but compare update journal to enjoy freetime...... i enjoy. i may just kill this al together......want updates, call............
no deciosions yet

Phase Two HUAH!
yep anywho, starting tomorrow i finally get to leave this god forsaken post! yeah, go shopping, get me some clothes and what not so that this saturday i can go out and get my nipples pierced and get a tatty or two MUMPKIN!
any who, show me some love you pansy bastards

http://www.izpitera.ru/lj/tetka.swf
maybe this will intertain you all as much as it did myself. click her to move her. then release to watch the fun. ahumdelala!